Say Anything (..but say what you mean..)

Today at work McLemore and Foreman (two of my co-workers) were having a discussion about relationships and I had to contest what they were saying about certain things. I was mildly berated for the opinion I hold and told several times that, "[I'm] still young." The fact of the matter is that there is more to life than sex and money..there is more to relationships than that..there is something more.

I understand fully that sex is an important part of a marital relationship, but outside of marriage a relationship can last without the sex. The times that I've heard Amber state that even without her religious background she would still value her body more than that have reaffirmed me more than she'll probably ever know. I understand that it is "natural" for a male and a female to have sexual attraction to one another.

It took a lot for me to come forward and start quoting scripture..but I had to stand up for what I believe..what I know to be right. "For the natural man is an enemy to God.."

I put myself on a pedestal today..revealing openly that I am a virgin. That I am "highly" religious as they have determined. That I hold myself to a higher standard. Not to say I think I'm better than them..because I don't..but that I expect more out of my life than what I see in theirs.

I don't mean to judge them..I know in God's eyes we're all the same..we've all fallen short in our own ways..and He loves us all still the same. The issue then becomes I guess that I, unlike them, have a testimony. The thing that really scared me the most..and terrified me..was just thinking that I have gone so long..holding the testimony that I do..and have still continued down these strange and twisted, perverse paths of unrighteousness.

It scares me now thinking that I have set myself apart from them..the fact that they know what I believe..this small portion of what I know to be true, they have heard from my lips, and will expect me to live up to that expectation which I have set before myself.

I set myself to a higher standard at work today by standing up for what I believe, and what I know. I am scared to death of what the underlying implications of that are, but what's done is done. Here's to hoping I can now live up fully to the commendations I received from everyone today for standing up for what I believe, despite it alienating me fully from the rest of the group.

See Also: "Alien Youth" by Skillet, "Worldwide Jesus domination..We're taking over the world, we're the alien youth."

♥always, LB
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Oh, and I forgot..I'm never going to use this stupid, blasted, wretched thing.