Just Today.

Today. Today was a good day. Yesterday, maybe not so much as today. Still, today was a good day.

Today wasn't a mark of my accomplishments. Today wasn't anything that I achieved. Today was no fault, and no credit, of my own.

Today was a gift from God.

See, that's something I've been missing, my whole life up till now. Not just those words, they're too easy. What they mean, that's where it kicks in.

Today was a gift - I did not earn it, I did not cause it, I didn't even deserve it! God gave me today, because He wanted me to be happy. He wanted me to be happy. Wow.

So what about yesterday? If today was a gift, what was yesterday?

Yesterday, I took God for granted. I pushed Him aside in favor of what I wanted. I listened to my own selfish pride over His loving Spirit. I was wrong for doing that, and I will have to repent for what I have done. So how then is it that today God has given me so much, when only yesterday I had my back turned as I pushed Him slowly away?

God is perfectly just, but so often I have found that He will give us blessing in the time we most need it. Sometimes, that blessing may even be a negative result of something we had done previously. Consequence is an essential piece to becoming something more.

This is nothing more than scraping the surface of what I truly wanted to say, but for now, it's good enough.

How was I supposed to say what I wanted to say anyway if I'm never going to use this thing?